I’ve been neglecting this space, I know that. It’s been nearly a month since I’ve written anything! What takes up most of my time is the slow and steady adjustment back to life in America.
I’ll be honest, it’s really hard.
Sure, there were difficult days while we were living over in Europe (moving house every 2 or 3 weeks can get stressful!) but I truly underestimated how tough it would be to acclimate back.
Jeremy and I both have our days, several of them in a row sometimes, where we just feel…down. Lives moved on without us while we were gone and that’s a tough fact to wrap your head around until it’s right in front of your face. I’ve said it before, but missing the day to day of the people you love is truly the hardest part of being away.
I am working my hardest to embrace this season of change. The things I thought I’d be just thrilled with in coming home don’t feel as fun as I wanted them to. Unpacking all my stuff hasn’t felt as refreshing as I anticipated, it just feels messy. Taking laps around Target or a giant mall doesn’t make me as happy as it used to, and I never find anything I want to buy.
Instead, we’ve been trying to get up into the mountains more, where the air is crisp and fresh and there are spots that still don’t have cell service.
I think the simple act of getting out of the house helps (even though it’s freezing cold and I’d probably rather stay in my pajamas), driving down to Garden of the Gods, and simply enjoying the beautiful scenery. It’s funny because I’ll say I hate the cold and my dream location is one where it’s warm year-round, but I’m actually really digging the snow. It’s light and powdery and both Lilly and I like to play around in it.
My in-laws have a big hot tub in their backyard and Jer and I have been sitting in it at night. It’s SO quiet out there and the stars are gorgeous. We have this app that shows what’s going on in the night sky, which stars/planets are which, outlines the constellations, which direction other galaxies are in, etc., and it’s my favorite. If I made a list of the good things in life, sitting in a hot tub while it’s snowing around you would be high up on that list.
We’ve also got some close friends who have a house up in Silverthorne and they’re always inviting us to come up (we NEVER say no)!
We both love their house and going up there is the best way to relax. I like the area too, it’s far enough away from the city, but still close enough to the comforts I need (like Whole Foods cupcakes).
And the snow! OMG! Last week, there was probably 40 inches. We properly bundled up and went out to play.
As soon as I start seeing snow covered trees, I get giddy and make Jeremy stop the car every oh, 4 or 5 feet, so I can take pictures.
TL;DR: Coming back to America is hard, the Rocky Mountains make it better.